🎧 :
Yesterday I was waiting for midnight because his birthday is today. He doesn't know this, and I didn't even text him at midnight, but while I was waiting I wamted to listen to some music.
I remember reposting a phrase of one of Big Thief's songs, but I didn't know which one it was, so I searched up the lyrics and exactly this song came out.
Paul, his name but in english.
I started bawling my eyes out 😭, I sure miss him.
This song reminded me of us, but we never dated, and he probably really just sees me as a friend, but the "And then he showed me what is love" just hit differently 🥹 he was the first guy I ever loved, and I still love him deeply, but we are only "friends", even tho we didn't act like such. I miss my Paolo, even tho he was never actually mine ☹️
2026-07-08 20:08:24