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Even though it was a short maybe 8 months-ish, she was one of my best chapters of my life. We would often walk together side by side after school to go to this food stall right outside school. Then head back to the bus stop for her to wait for her dad. Then I'd ride my bike home. It went on like that for a decent amount of time. I felt safe, loved, special, calm, and open. It felt like the world went quiet right after the hurricane. While all this was happening, I didn't know that she knew I liked her. So I promised to propose after finishing school. But it all ended that same year, where she opened up and told me she knew all along and she doesn't want to have a relationship like this because she felt like she wasn't enough. I tried to change her mind, comfort her, or do anything I could possibly do. Even though I'm a prodigy of psychology (yes I know the self-glaze is crazy, but it's true and I've proven it with my hg), I still can't do anything about it. So we put a stop to our friendship, and let life and fate guide us. Few months past, I decided to text her because it was her birthday and I wanted to gift her something. I gifted a pen and correction tape with her favourite cartoon character branded on it. (She said she didn't remember telling me about her favourite character, but I knew because of the pfp. See, I know to read people). And then we talked, and I said I wanna be better so that I could get her father's blessing one day. But she brushed it off and said "Don't even try for me, you're just wasting yourself. To put it simply, I won't be interested anyways". That shattered my heart like glass falling from space to pure flat concrete. And from then on, I don't even think of trying for love. I just wanna be the best version of myself.
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