shuvv_dayan on ig. :
Am I not enough? Am I that hard to understand? Am I asking for too much? Am I not worth it... worth the risk? These are the questions that keep replaying in my mind, over and over again. No matter how hard I try to silence them, they always find their way back. Sometimes I wonder if all I ever wanted was too much, or if I simply wasn't someone worth choosing.
I tried, though. Nilaban ko naman. Sinubukan ko naman. I stayed, I understood, I waited, and I kept believing that maybe one day things would finally be different. I gave my time, my effort, and the most genuine version of myself. I wasn't perfect, but everything I did came from a sincere place.
So why did it still end like this? Bakit parang ang dali lang akong bitawan? Was I really asking for too much? All I wanted was honesty, consistency, and reassurance. I never asked for perfection—I just wanted to feel like I mattered. Pero bakit parang ang hirap ibigay no'n?
Maybe you don't even realize how much this changed me. Now I overthink every little thing. I question if I'm too much, too little, too quiet, or too easy to replace. Ang hirap isipin na after giving everything I could, I still ended up wondering if I was ever enough.
I don't regret loving genuinely. Hindi ko pinagsisisihan na nilaban kita, kasi at least I know I was real. Pero minsan napapaisip pa rin ako... if I had been different, would you have stayed? If I had loved you in another way, would I have been worth the risk?
Maybe I'll never get the answers I'm looking for. Maybe some questions are meant to remain unanswered. But the ones that hurt the most will always be: Am I not enough? Am I asking for too much? Am I not worth it... worth the risk?
2026-07-10 12:58:04