«ohsean» :
mahal kita to the point that sometimes i choose to ignore the pain even when it’s already hurting me deeply, because losing you feels heavier than anything i’m going through. i know you don’t want me to drain myself for you, i know you’ve said that before, but i can’t help it because this is how much i love you. when you love someone this deeply, you tend to give more than you should, even when it starts to hurt, even when it slowly takes pieces of you away. i’m willing to sacrifice everything for you, even if it hurts, even if it becomes too much, even if there are days when i feel like i’m slowly losing parts of myself, as long as you’re happy and you feel that someone is still choosing to stay with you no matter what. i don’t want to be a burden to you, that’s why most of the time i choose to keep everything to myself even when what i’m feeling is already too heavy. i’m scared that if i open up too much, it might push you away or turn into another misunderstanding, and i don’t want that. so i stay quiet, not because i don’t feel anything, but because i’m trying to protect what we have. i love you so much, and with you, i felt things i never thought i would ever feel in my life, a kind of love that was so pure, so deep, and so real that it changed me completely. but at the same time, you’re also the person who made me feel a kind of pain i never imagined i would go through, and that kind of pain hits differently because it came from the same person who once made me feel so safe and loved. i just hope that when you’re having a hard time, you would still look at me the way you used to, the way you used to see me before, like i still matter, like i’m still someone you choose even when things aren’t easy. i’m not asking for everything to go back to how it was before, i just want to feel your love again, even in the smallest ways, even just a little, even if it’s not the same as before, just enough to remind me that what we have is still real. and please don’t ever think that i stayed because i had no choice, because that’s not true. i’m staying because i’m sure about you.
never ko naman naisipan na bumitaw e.
2026-06-02 00:23:36