Civanah 🫧🎨 :
He didn’t mean to though 🥲 he had terrible examples, bad role models consistently through his entire life, never felt like he fit in, never loved himself, never felt LOVED, never felt seen/ understood, never had someone that would just sit and listen without an agenda… he just needed love and someone with enough patience to show him there’s a better way. 🥲 He did this to me, it hurt, broke me, I had to heal and build myself back AT THE SAME TIME I was trying to help him build his self. I don’t regret it, I love him deeply, I want nothing but the best for him and it’s mutual. He has grown sooo much since October/ November and I couldn’t be more proud of my handsome boy. Sometimes people (men and woman) just need room to grow, love, support, and patience. He still makes mistakes as all people do, he still has bad habits to work on and heal/ grow from, as all people do, but he’s putting in the work to do so and that is more important to me than anything. He has been open, vulnerable, transparent (even in moments he didn’t want to be), admitted some of his deepest faults, taken accountability, admitted to himself some hard truths, told me things that have never touched another’s ears and I can only imagine how hard it was and I’m so glad I had (have) the patience to be hurting and still choose to love the very person that hurt me just because I know they need it. We’re not together but I will always consider our time together invaluable and an absolute treasure to have experienced, the good and the bad.
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