ᥡᥙᥣᥲ𒉭 :
" idk where to start anymore because every time I try to put my feelings into words, it never feels enough for how deeply I love you. The truth is I still love you so much, and I think that’s the hardest thing for me to admit because no matter how hard I try to move forward, my heart still finds its way back to you every single time. Every day feels incomplete without you in it. You’re the first thought that crosses my mind when I wake up and somehow still the last person I think about before I sleep. I miss you in ways I can’t explain. I miss your presence, your voice, our conversations, the little moments that probably meant nothing to anyone else but meant everything to me. Sometimes I catch myself rereading old messages, replaying memories in my head, wishing I could go back to the days when I still had you.
I know I’ve begged you. I know I’ve held on too tightly, maybe even too desperately, but it’s only because losing you felt like losing a part of myself. I loved you genuinely, deeply, and with everything in me. You became my peace, my comfort, the person my heart felt safest with. So when you started pulling away, it honestly felt like my whole world was slowly falling apart and I didn’t know how to stop it.
What hurts the most is knowing that while I’m still here loving you with the same heart, you don’t want me anymore. And I swear I’ve tried to accept it. I’ve tried to tell myself to let go, to stop hoping, to stop waiting for you to come back… but how do you move on from someone who became your home? How do you teach your heart to stop loving the one person it never wanted to lose?
There are nights when I stay awake thinking about you, wondering if you ever miss me even a little, wondering if I still cross your mind the way you constantly cross mine. Because for me, you never became just a memory. You are still the person I secretly wish would come back and say, Let’s fix this. Let’s try again.No matter how much pain this has caused me, my heart still chooses you. And maybe that’s what real love is loving someone even when they’re no longer yours, even when they’re walking away, even when they stopped choosing you back. but we weren't together "
2026-05-31 22:28:55