7 survived fent ODs, jail twice, probation and house arrest at 17, 3 psych wards, easily over 30 rehabs and sober livings combined and I still made it thru all of that with a bigger heart and muscles somehow but life just loves to beat me down man people love to try and tear me down my own family members are still scared of me I can’t ever even talk about how I feel bc they get so worried I see it in their faces and eyes I’m not dumb and I just don’t get it anymore man but I’m proud of myself and I’m still a messed up sinner like everyone is but I love God and I love Jesus my lord and savior and that’s all that matters to me if I could give everything I have away I would if I could stay broke and survive I would I don’t even care about money I don’t care about social media but it’s literally my last hope in life to make it and I just make these post to show yall God is good and loves you and will take care of you and make you a new creation thru Christ if you surrender it all to him but these last 3 1/2 years of being sober and trying to be a better man just feels like I did it for nothing lately and it really sucks but I just keep going and praying things will get better at some point but it just feels like it gets worse by the day now like this app and even people now think I’m fake and AI and a bot and Lord knows what else and I just am so confused about all of it I really am so pray for me like I pray for all of you on earth every night I get woken up at 3am bc I’m one of Gods “watchmen” now which I think is cool so I spend from 3-4am praying over this whole earth and everyone and everything and it’s fr true when they say the people with the biggest hearts get treated the worse bc I get treated terrible by someone different everyday if not multiple and if you read this whole caption thank you bc 95% of people won’t so good job you have a better attention span than a fish #fyp #testimony #phillipanthonymitchell #sermon #ManofGod - @steeeeeeezo