𑣲⋆𐙚scxramouche :
can you do mine?
It sits like smoke in the back of my throat—
no cough to clear it, no wind to blow it away.
I laugh, I nod, I move my feet,
but my bones are filled with lead and gray.
The colors fade to washed‑out film,
music turns to static in my ears.
The numbness wraps me tight, cold and still—
safer than feeling all the jagged tears.
I smile for the room, but my eyes go dark,
a door shut heavy, locked from inside.
They say “it gets better” like they know the way—
they don’t live where my shadows hide.
I count the marks on skin and soul,
proof I’ve carried more than I should bear.
It’s not just sadness, loud and sharp—
it’s quiet, empty, always there.
Some days I float above my own life,
a stranger watching my hands move slow.
The world spins fast, bright and loud,
while I stand still, sinking low.
I don’t ask for much—just to breathe without ache,
to feel one song and let it stay pure.
But depression holds me like old, heavy chains:
You are mine, and I am sure.
And still I drag this weight along,
even when every step feels wrong,
even when I feel so ugly, small, and torn—
somewhere deep, a tiny light is worn:
I’m still here, even when I’m forlorn.
2026-06-03 06:26:09