oreenji :
I graduated cumlaude but failed two of my board exams. Grabe yung shame, guilt, and galit ko sa sarili ko, nanliit ako sobra. I deactivated all my socials kasi nasasaktan ako everytime nakikita ko yung post nila about passing the boards and their work. For 2 years, I was unemployed, I was stuck and isolated. Minsan feel ko ang unfair na ni Lord kasi may pinapaboran siya, so I openly admitted and prayed na nagtatampo ako sa kanya. Months passed, my mom suddenly suggested that I try for law school, I was scared and was too traumatized to try again. I prayed again and I pushed through it, by his grace I passed, I am now pursuing law. Now I feel like I'm stepping into his will, I'm stepping into the door he opened for me, one that is for me.
It made me realize how God can shut doors and put you into a state of isolation cause he is preparing something better for you. Our timeline is not like his, same as how humans have their own timelines and blessings curated by God. I am not pushing religion but I am sharing how I survived that slump in my life.
What is for you, will be for you.
There is no need to figure things out immediately. The greatest achievement in life is to experience it, to live without carrying the weight of other people's burden. Live, wake up, take a rest and try again.
2026-06-06 19:39:46