You're trying to be better but every step forward is met with 3 hurdles, a curve ball, and a dumpster fire. It's exhausting, you're not seeing any results, and wondering why you even decided to do this in the first place. Either one of three things is happening: 1. You've been here before and backslid, so now you have to prove you really want it. 2. The enemy is trying to keep you in that place because that's right where it wants you. 3. You are on the brink of an absolute breakthrough Birthing hurts the worst right before the baby is born, but you don't stop pushing because you know you're almost to the finish line. Nothing comes easy, and everything takes time. Don't let fear, feelings of worthlessness, or doubts keep you in that place you so desperately want to be beyond. It's okay to have a bad day, a relapse, or a backslide as long as you realize what's happening and get back into it. You may not be seeing any results now but I can assure you that when you look back on this time you will see that the days where the most progress was made were the days you just simply chose not to give up. - @cleaningcoastalal