chex-mix&pumped‐upkicks :
growing up, my neighborhood adopted me, so, if this happened to me, idk. I was raised to believe im real, so everything i do is real, and that others ppl opinions dont matter. it was also very, "dont be a hard rock when you really are a gem", growing up as I did. fakes were everywhere. but that didnt matter. because "you" grinded. "you" hustled. "you" expanded your mind. for real. and "you" couldnt hide the goods if ya wanted too. bc anyone with a good eye could tell you was the real deal. a gem. precious, but also singular. the way we lived, and still lived, trained us not to believe in nobody but ourselves (thats why we worked hard and gave everything everything we got), and to not think anyone owed us anything (we lived our lives through our eyes only, and put out self consciousness). we were not a conformist community in the hood. we were individualistic. and, as such, made our own waves. we did not surf on others. but neither did we quake when others had motion...bc everyone had or was working on motion...so competition or fragility did not survive. your door knockers and puffer coat was styled intentionally to be just your own shade of fly. so everyone in fubu jeans didnt matter. it was how "you" did it. how "you" shined. and we trained our eyes to never hate anyone else's shine. that's why jealousy was so "hated" in 90s movies. it wasnt just common fare like for class of 2025'. jealousy was an extreme anomaly that destroyed the whole block. and we did not cultivate or tolerate it. it wasnt cute *fake sticks tongues out for likes (sarcasm)*. so to the bullying. if it was there. I didnt see it. I was genuine. I was real...and just bc the hands that held me might have have been plastic, dont matter . worse, Im "saved", as they say. besides the "blessed is all those who are reviled without cause" powerup giving me mad joy, peace, and hope, I am called to marry. for real. everyday I wake up I make it my business to be a proverbs 31 woman who burns both ends of the candle, lives a life that will cause her husband to be praised at the gate and keeps my fam in purple. so everyday I am happy and fulfilled. b ye singular.
2026-06-05 10:25:14