Joel👽 :
It is hard to say someone who loves you so much could hurt you so badly. It is hard to believe love so strong can fade away but still linger and hurt so badly.
I wish I could show you my love for you. I want us to accept each other throughout our toughest times and our easiest times. I want us to hold hands in public and walk around without the shame of being together. I want us to have those fights we always used to have, but I want them to end with us saying I love you at the end of the night. I want us to say I care for you. I want those fights to never break us apart or stop our love.
I never want our love to fade away, no matter how much pain you feel, and no matter how much you want to forget. At the moment, I wish you would never forget. Even though there were bad moments, those good moments were so good. Remembering hurts so good that you want to not feel ever again.
I love you so much. I wish I could say it to your face, hold you, and kiss you. I wish that one day I could get on one knee and show you how much I love you. It sounds crazy to have so much love for someone that you are okay with putting yourself through the pain of waiting, no matter how long or how painful. I wish that in our next lifetime we find each other just as fast as we did this time, but I do not want it to stop there.
I want that next lifetime to be the one where we get everything right. I want to build a life where we do not have to hide or wonder where we stand. My mind constantly goes back to the memories of us, and I find myself trapped between wanting to move on and wanting to hold on to you forever. The silence between us feels heavy, and it kills me that I cannot just pick up the phone and talk to you like I used to. You are still the first person I want to tell when something happens in my day.
I look at old pictures and my heart aches because the love did not go away just because we stopped talking. I sit with this pain every single day, and I wonder if you ever feel a fraction of what I feel. I wonder if you miss my presence the way I miss yours. Even if the waiting breaks me down completely, a part of me will always belong to you. I love you Yadriel
2026-06-23 06:35:07