ASHYBOI!!!! :
I miss my girl so much,i don’t know what to do. I try to keep myself busy. Or sleep all day. Or even try to not,though it’s very hard cause how could i not miss her,the love I have for her is so different,the feelings i have for her is like no other,being at ease,shameless to be myself,no fear of doing anything with or around her,more open,talkative,weird and crazy. When I first met her i honestly didn’t expect anything from her,I didn’t think our relationship together would be like this,I cried when I realized how much she makes me feel safe,wanted,comfortable,important,and actually loved,not in a bad way it was with happiness and a feeling I never felt. I’ll be honest,I was scared when I liked her, not cause I thought she was a bad person,but because of how I thought it would be- toxic,no communication,fights that had no sense in them,a lot of jealousy,silent treatment at random. But I thought wrong. Her presence,hugs,and just us talking makes me feel so at ease,warm and gentle. She is one of a kind,an amazing,wonderful,beautiful one that I’m happy to call her mine. I trust her a lot,more than I ever have trusted anyone. Not just with what I tell her,but when we’re apart,can’t text,can’t call,can’t see each other right now. I thought trust would be hard to come to me with people. But with her it wasn’t. I didn’t have to fix myself to be loved by her,for I didn’t have to perform anything to impress her,just being myself is what she loves and she told me that. I feel at home with her. Like I can be myself without judgement. Be emotional and sensitive without being laughed at or rudely teased over. Her little reassurance she gives is what gets me calm at rate points of stress and anxiety and overthinking. Surprisingly I’ve never overthought with her as much as I did in my passed,only twice. I love her a lot,dearly. I’ve never felt this way. I’ve never been this inlove with someone. Really everything feels so warm and gentle when she’s around, I love “i” ❤️p.s. mb this was so long 😭😅
2026-06-16 07:54:02