Alex V :
i had a dream that i died. i was shot, executed and i felt the whole process, the bullet going through my head, me fighting to stay up but loosing control of my body and falling, but not feeling anything anymore physically, heard their voices fade away and saw my memories ... saw some, that I didn't even know about, (checked with mum and they actually happened) and after that i felt peace, lightness and calmness of nothing, i was somewhere but nowhere, i didn't have any body or physical shape, i couldn't feel myself be physical, i was sooo at peace and ease and like there wasn't any gravity or anything really. When i woke up i checked watches for sleepscore out of curiosity... my heart rate went from 110 - 80 - 40 - xx - xx - 60 - 50 -60
i can explain everything logically independently, but the whole thing happening at the same time and that realistically... i was actually very suicidal after that experience, since my body didn't hurt and i had no worries or thoughts at that state, it was so amazing and i almost convinced myself fully, that life isn't it. life got better, so now im kinda less scared of death, but also kinda more since i want to live now
2026-07-29 07:58:10