@stillbecomingmama: i know how that feels. the baby is finally asleep and the weight of them is warm and real on your chest and you love them so completely it almost hurts and you are also sitting in the quietest loneliness you have ever felt in your life. and those two things are both just true at the same time, the love and the loneliness, and there is no resolving them into something neater because that is just what this season holds sometimes. both at once. all the way. and you sit there in the dark with all of it and you do not know how to explain it to anyone because how do you tell someone that you are holding the most important thing that has ever happened to you and you have never felt more alone. it doesn’t make sense outside of this room at this hour. it only makes sense to someone who has sat in the same dark with the same weight on their chest and felt the same thing settle over them like a quiet they didn’t ask for. every dot on that map is someone who makes sense of it. not because they can fix it or explain it or take it away. just because they are there. awake. holding their own sleeping baby in their own quiet room feeling their own version of both at once. the loneliness lies to you about how many of us are in it. there are so many of us in it. #postpartum #newmom #postpartumsupport #momlife #momtok
