@amaracarisb: I smell her, I feel her. When I hear water running I have flashbacks. There’s so many daily triggers that may not make sense to people but make sense to me due to what I experienced in that moment. There’s so many dark details to this that I had to witness and I hate to be trapped there with her sometimes, but it’s the only time I feel her. Other than that, I try to not think too much about this. I miss her too much. It feels impossible that this happened. I still haven’t believed it. Even when she literally passed in my arms and I pleaded to her as she death rattled. I cant think of this. I miss you too much mommy. Please always stay. Sui*c*de is NEVER THE ANSWER. #momgrief #suicideprevention