odhran :
It feels every summer i am dissapointed, i am always excited for it to come, but my hopes of actually enjoying myself or getting out there never come to fruition and i spend the season rotting away until i cant no longer and have to return to the usual stuff. I dont have a long time left in school, and as such i am pressured to make a decision on what i want to work as, what my goals are etc. but i dont have a plan, nor any motivation to create one. it is a strange thing to have everyone around you care more for your life and future than you do, but i simply dont want to live my life as a slave, to spend majority of my weeks miserable just to keep a roof above my head, it is not one anybody wants to live of course, but it is scary thought especially when as i said, i have no idea of where i am going. as young as i am still, i wish i were younger, with more time ahead of me and less care for anything beyond the present, to be able to play minecraft for the first time again thinking growing up was a fun prospect
2026-06-18 01:33:09