@jyotiramrup: Grateful Liam took this video of us the last time we went to the city April 15th. But heartbroken watching this back now. I have this shirt he’s wearing in a ziplock bag to try and keep his smell on it. The pinky ring he’s wearing is now with his sister and the sunglasses he worked hard to pay for are somewhere on the side of the road probably crushed. People say as times goes on things will get easier but I highly doubt it. He didn’t choose to leave this earth. He knew many people needed him here and we still do. He left us so suddenly. I always knew we lived in a cruel world where everything does not happen for a reason and now there’s for sure no way Id ever think overwise. He was my best friend and the deepest connection I’ve ever had and I was lucky enough to call him my boyfriend. I could tell him thoughts I told myself I’d never share with anyone and he never judged me. Even some of my darkest thoughts he never judged and even shared how he’d have those thoughts too but he never shared it with anyone before either. I don’t think everyone can genuinely say their partner is their bestfriend and I think that’s why some think I may date again and things will get easier as times goes on. How could losing your bestfriend and lover in the same person ever get easier? Why would I ever want to be with someone else when he’s the last person I’ve been with and I’m the last person he’ll ever be with? I yearn for his touch. I lay in bed thinking about the times he was in this bed with me. I imagine us cuddling and it makes me sick I’ll never experience that again with him. If anyone else was in my shoes and got to experience the amazing person that Liam was and experienced the connection we had, and then to loose him so suddenly, I’d imagine no one would be able to get over him if they had the memories I have with him. He truly is one of a kind. The world needs more people like Liam.
