guys my job is looking cute and being cool to watch. I don’t film myself throwing up, or crying when I’m experiencing symptoms, or film much at all when I don’t feel good. “You don’t look disabled!” Every time people ask me what I have I talk about my postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome and endometriosis because they feel the most prevalent, but I’ve also suffered from severe arthritis since I was about 12. My spinal discs were crushed with me being so overweight as a teenager, especially due to hormonal imbalances from BC and PCOS & endometriosis. EDS is also in the mix lol. I don’t look disabled anymore because I can almost forget I am- if I have a daily nap, good food, the life I live now, my partner taking care of me, all of the tiny accommodations I’ve built into my life for myself over the past 2 years I can’t even explain… you get it? I only am healthy now because of the bus, all of the weight loss happened after becoming homeless, cutting off my parents, entire family, living with very little money for anything aside from pure basics ($400/month doesn’t go far) but we lucked out with food pantries not having their funding cut yet, and I lived on the healthiest food I ever experienced because it was what my body needed. People ask why I’m so weirdly excited about mandarin oranges and whipped cream- I didn’t experience sugar outside of canned fruit for almost a full calendar year. Ice cream didn’t exist, we had a cooler and meat, carbs and veggies, most of which were foraged when we didn’t live by a food pantry. I had to move daily, we lived outside, I was entirely in a new circumstance and my body changed and got stronger. It doesn’t mean it wouldn’t break if I went back to a ‘real’ job, I can’t go back to that life. I do so much for myself now, and obviously the influencer/spicy content route is a lot physically easier for me. And yes, I can still boink, but I do have a day of recovery of more body pain and physical strain regardless. (But that always matches up with needing to edit… soooo… 🤷‍♀️😋) Also, it just means Alder takes care of me entirely lol. I couldn’t exist without him. Anyways thanks for being here I love you 💕🫶☀️ - @ava.m.palomaz