@_rashaundamciver: Grief really chooses its own time to smack you in the face when you’re not expecting it. This trend has really triggered me a lot like the movie sinners did. With being a twin nobody really understands that bond unless you are a twin. When my sister passed away, I was not given the courtesy of saying goodbye. I have so much guilt for the way. My sister passed, and the fact that I couldn’t save her in time. Those of you know my story know that I had planned to get my sister and move her in with me in Ohio. She ended up passing away in North Carolina in pain and in sadness. You can’t turn back the cock but when you lose someone in your life that’s so close to you at such a young age. You still hope that you wake up and they will be standing there smiling at you. But you know that that will never happen. But grief could make you somewhat delusional. I was extremely delusional, the first two years of my sister‘s death. I did not believe it, and I could not believe it and I couldn’t even begin to process my grief. I have not been able to fully complete a grief counseling session because thinking about her is way too hard. I have a lot of regret of my childhood. A lot of things were out of my control, but my grandmother was always in full control. And she always made sure to pin my sister and I against each other in that causes us to argue a lot. Sometimes at night I lay awake, thinking about those arguments and just wish that I could argue with her again. She had the best smile that you’d ever know. She had such an outgoing personality, and everybody loved her and laughed with her, and she could really brighten up a room. Something that I could never really do and something that I really admired about her a lot in our childhood. It’s so dangerous to think about the what if and think about what I could’ve done to save her, but the truth is this was always going to be the inevitable. God was always going to call her home before I was ready. ##grief##twin##twinsisters##childhoodtrauma

~*AngelA*~ :

You never “get over” the loss, the grief never goes away, you learn to live, to function with it everyday in order to keep going.

Tee :

It’s been 5 years since my sibling passed and still to this day I can’t think about him without fear of falling back into a deep depression😔You don’t ever get over it you just learn how to cope and live on cause as cliche as it sounds that’s what they’d want, for us to live on and be happy it’s a hard feat to always live up to but all we can do is try

Stella Disco :

The longing for their presence is the hardest part of grief for me.

mamatornado01 :

Sorry for your loss

Elijah :

As a twin, when I thought my sister died I collapsed, and I grieved her so bad but something in me told me she was still alive and she was, that’s something I think twins have. In your case, she might not be physically alive, but you still feel her alive with you, and you’re reminded she’s not her but sweetheart, that’s alright to feel that. She’s with you always because you are her and she is you, a special gift from God ❤️

B🧚🏼‍♀️ :

You can’t turn back the want now

Bri🖤 :

As a twin myself you’ll never ever get over it. You came into this world with ur other half. No one would ever understand that type of lost, ur so strong girl. Lots of love I couldn’t ever imagine tbh. I’m so sorry, lots of prayers for you both!

ana.denise.romance.books :

🤍🤍🤍 Thinking of you, Queen! I didn't have a twin but I did have an older brother that passed away almost 10 years ago. Its hard!

𓀡𝚀𝚞𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝙽𝚎𝚣𝚒𝚜 :

sending all my love from Saudi 🇸🇦

Angie :

If you have babies one day it’s as if she had kids too. I hope that does something for you. Identical twins basically are the moms to their siblings kids

Eve_ovy.x :

I’m so, so, very sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine what you’re going through, I’ll keep you in my prayers. My deepest condolences!!💐🕊️💜

A :

You both are so beautiful! I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️

Maakgarebe :

So sorry for your loss 💜

kjenay23 :

Have you watched Voicemails from Isabella? It’s a really good movie about a sister’s grief ❤️

N☆ :

Queen you can never let go of someone that’s a part of you. Embrace her essence that reigns on in you🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

drzezpyppd :

5 years is nothing. I am not close to my sibling and I can still imagine how it goes by in the blink of an eye. I’m so sorry.

SHE IS VAUN :

My condolences ❤️

Florence Wangari :

Leah :

You take how ever much you need, don’t let anybody set a timer on your griefing💟💟

bigjay :

😭 I’m sorry sis sending you a hug 💗

Thaythame`🌸 :

I would never be okay after that

a.nyxx4 :

So pretty