@estellerichter444: you didn’t choose a seat. you chose a strategy. the same one you’ve used since you were small enough to need one. 1. the head. you lead so no one can leave you. if you’re running it, you can’t be abandoned in it. 2. the edge. you sit near the door because part of you is always ready to go. you call it independent. it’s bracing. 3. serving. you earn your place by being useful, because somewhere you decided you wouldn’t be wanted just for showing up. 4. turned away. you leave before you can be left. rejection hurts less if you call it your choice. 5. small. you make yourself easy to overlook, because what they can’t see, they can’t reject. 6. arms crossed. you watch everyone so nothing catches you off guard. you’ve called it discernment. it’s armor. every one of these kept you alive. every one of them also kept you a little alone. here’s the part no one told you: you were never auditioning for the seat. it was always yours. which number are you. first instinct only. follow for the patterns you’ve never been shown. 🤍
