@Takashi ✓⃝ :
How can I tell you that I am hurting too, but I always put your feelings first simply because I love you? I never want to be the reason why you cry, and I am terrified of losing you because you are the only woman who has ever made me feel this way.
I have felt so much resentment and jealousy inside, but I choose not to say anything because I don’t want you to overthink or worry. Sometimes, I even convince myself that everything is fine because I trust you completely. There are even times when I blame myself just for feeling these emotions.
Remember when we had a fight? Instead of explaining things to me, you just distanced yourself right away. I thought you were just busy because of school, but I wondered why it took you so long to go online and reply to my messages. I found out later that you were upset with me and that you wanted to distance yourself first so you could explain things better later. But what about me during those times? :(
I waited for you the whole day, and you only replied late at night with such short messages. I replied immediately because I thought we could finally talk after your long day, but nothing happened, you just disappeared again. Of course, it hurt me because I thought we could bond and stay up late together, but you just left me on delivered.
In those moments, I kept asking myself what I did wrong so we could fix it immediately and talk for a long time, but I couldn't do anything. I ended up telling myself that you were probably just tired from your day, so I chose to let you rest. By that time, I was already crying, and I even thought about checking your account just to make sure. That was when I saw you messaged one of our friends around 11:00 PM, while I was there thinking you were already asleep, but you weren't.
I didn't message you anymore after that because my hands were shaking and my chest felt so heavy. I just hoped and prayed that everything would be okay by tomorrow. I cried so hard because I couldn't handle all these emotions anymore.
But do you know what? Even after all that, I still chose to understand how you felt rather than focus on what was happening to me that night. It’s because I love you so much.💐
2026-07-02 02:42:11