cts :
bro honestly, i think what hurts me is not even carl himself. it's more about what the whole situation makes me feel. i know na someone liking you isn't something you can control, and i'm not expecting you to magically make him stop liking you. i just can't help but feel uncomfortable knowing na he still likes you even after knowing you're with me.
kasi when it comes to you, i really try my best to make sure na walang anything that could make you feel disrespected or insecure. i don't entertain girls who like me, i keep my distance, and i think twice about things kasi ayoko na may gawin ak na magiging reason for you to overthink. i do all of that willingly kasi i love you, not because i expect you to do the exact same things.
pero syempre, i'd be lying if i said hindi ko rin gusto maramdaman na you care about those things the same way i do. i don't need you to prove anything to me every second, and i don't want you to feel like you're being watched or controlled. i just want to know na when someone has feelings for you, especially someone who knows you're taken, you'll also think about how it could affect us.
maybe that's why i got so emotional about it. it's not because i don't trust you. it's because i care so much that my brain starts making problems out of everything. i start asking myself if i'm doing enough, if i'm being too much, if i'm expecting too much, or if i'm just being stupid for feeling hurt about it.
and i hate that i get like this sometimes. i don't want to be the boyfriend who's always worried about another guy. i want to trust you and just enjoy what we have. i just need reassurance sometimes, especially when something makes me feel insecure. i'm not asking you to choose between me and anyone else. i'm asking you to make me feel like i'm safe in our relationship too.
i love you, and i'm still choosing you. i'm not saying all this because i want to fight or make you feel guilty. i just really needed to let it out because keeping it all inside was making me feel worse. i hope you can understand where i'm coming from, even if you don't feel the same way.
2026-09-08 10:04:11