Nat :
I used to have the best boy best friend back then. He was so sweet, kind and caring. I met him in 6th grade and he was like another me, weird, funny, and we never judged eachother, we talked about everything and anything, it was amazing. I could open up to him, be myself, not feel like I have to change for someone else. He was one of the best people I ever met, we would talk every single day. Eventually he started to kinda catch feelings and I did too but we didn't date. 7th grade, start of the year we were still best friends, still were so close, but I did date another guy and he moved on as well, we were still each others twin and it was amazing knowing I had a friend like him. Then eventually we did date in the middle of 7th, but not for that long, but he was still the same after that, loving, caring, an amazing best friend. Then over the summer of that year, he still liked me a lot, I made the mistake. I thought I liked another guy when I clearly only liked him but I never told him about the guy because I wasnt sure. Then one day he found out on his own and he was very upset. I apologized a big while later and he said it was ok but he could never like me again. 8th grade, we were still friends kind of but it felt different. Maybe that old spark of love we both felt once was what was missing, we still would talk but I usually would start the conversation, the friendship slowly drifted away, we rarely talk anymore, when we do his laugh, his smi!e, everything makes me remember the memories, it still hurts for me but when i asked he said he was fine, maybe Im the one trying to hold onto the friendship even after what I did while hes trying to stay away more, I thought I would have a best friend since middle school to cherish since im going to 9th grade, but I ruined it all, I still see what I used to see in him but I cant reach out to it anymore, I lost someone that truly saw me for who I was not some fake outer layer. I wish I could undo that day.
2026-06-24 15:09:14