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finally, a video to vent. I'm tired of being painted as the one who doesn't care when I've spent so much of this relationship trying to prove that I do (my gallery will prove it). People only notice the things I failed to do, but nobody seems to notice the things I've been doing all along. I gave updates when I could, I made time even when I was exhausted, I stayed when it would've been easier to leave, I listened, I reassured, I put effort into fixing things, I gave gifts, attention, affection, and pieces of myself that nobody ever talks about. The truth is, I wasn't asking for grand gestures or impossible standards in return. I was begging for the BARE MINIMUM. I was begging to feel chosen, appreciated, PRIORITIZED, understood, and LOVED THE SAME WAY I WAS TRYING TO LOVE. I was begging for consistency, communication, reassurance, effort, and the feeling that my presence actually mattered. Instead, it felt like no matter how much I gave, the focus was always on what was missing. Every effort I made was overshadowed by one thing I didn't do. Every sacrifice became invisible. Every attempt to show love was treated as if it wasn't enough. You start questioning yourself. You start wondering if you'll ever be enough for someone who only sees your shortcomings and never your intentions. And that's what hurts the most—not that I wasn't willing to love, but that I was constantly trying, constantly giving, constantly proving myself, while at the same time begging for the BARE MINIMUM from the person I was GIVING EVERYTHING TO. No one talks about how exhausting it is to love someone while feeling unloved yourself. No one talks about the pain of pouring your heart into someone who keeps asking for more while giving less.AND EVENTUALLY ING NAN KAG "DILI KA KA APPRECIATE" "DILI BANI ENOUGH?" I didn't want perfection. I didn't want luxury. I didn't want the world. I just wanted the same effort, the same care, the same consideration, and the same energy that I was already giving. And the saddest part is that I kept begging for things that should never have required begging in the FIRST PLACE.
PS* I'm just settling for less...
2026-06-27 06:43:39