gemisnub :
I fucking hate how easily I got attached, I feel like shit because I haven’t seen her in a while and I’ve got this anxious feeling of never getting to see her again and that scares me because she’s the only person I ever liked getting a hug from, the only person I’d stare at in the eyes even when I was scared of her seeing the ugly in mine, the only person I wanted to be a part of my life, the only person u wanted to try my hardest for, the only person I genuinely wanted to make happy because it made me happy and not because I felt it was the right thing to do, everytime I ask to hang out or even talk a little bit I get ignored, and it hurts so much, I used to ask even when I was scared because it’s worth it, but now I’m scared to even send a message, I’m scared of her finding out how I feel, I’m scared of losing her, and I’m scared of not being important to her, because that’s all I really want, I’ve never felt important, maybe that’s why I get so anxious, I just want to be the reason she wakes up with a smile everyday, I don’t want it to be another man, I want to be hers, and the only reason I can even say how I feel is because I know nobody really gives enough of a fuck to read this
2026-08-06 01:38:09