@piratedpancakes: Sometimes I kneel beside my bed, bare knees bruising against the hardwood floor. My hands folded in my lap like a dead bird, pressing my fingers together until i swear i can hear a bone shift. Maybe if i pray hard enough, i can crack myself like an egg and bleed clean onto my sheets. I ask God if this is love, if love feels like a car crash that never stops screeching. If love tastes like cigarettes and something else bitter at the bottom of the coffee cup. The Bible says he sees everything, but everytime i look up all i see is the cracks in the ceiling. I whisper his name until my tongue goes numb, bite my tongue until i taste metal. I tell him I’ll be good. I swear I’ll be good. Just to make it stop. At night, i try again. I dig my nails into my ribs, trying to carve more space into my chest. Maybe because he needs somewhere softer to land. Maybe he’s ignoring me cause there’s no more space in my heart. I slip my fingers under my skin, feel the raw meat of myself, search for something holy. Something worth saving. I never find it. I keep looking. #kangtaehyun #tomorrow_x_together #taehyun #crywankmusic #thefemceltriad

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