Kiel1 :
months have passed, and i’m still trying to move on. i tried to distract myself, and i even told myself that maybe the feelings would fade. but at the end of the day, i still don’t understand why i think about you so much. maybe it’s because you meant so much to me, or maybe i’m just not ready to let go. sometimes i ask myself why i’m still holding on, but the answers always come in ways i don’t expect. i’ve learned that healing isn’t a straight line—some days are better than others. i’m learning to be patient with myself and accept that it’s okay to not be okay. still, a part of my heart keeps holding on to you, still hoping, even if i know i shouldn’t.
ryv, i love you. i really do—not in a loud or reckless way, but quietly and deeply, with all my heart. it’s been weeks, maybe months, since we last talked, and i know it still hurts. deep inside, i feel like we both know we made mistakes. how have you been? really, truly been? i still find myself thinking about us, wondering what could’ve been, still regretting how i misunderstood our relationship back then. day or night, the truth is i love you—no lies, just real feelings—but it still hurts so much.
since we stopped talking, i’ve been struggling. late nights, quiet moments, it all comes back. i don’t care if it takes me months to move on, but i want you to know i never loved you for fun—I loved you with my whole heart, genuinely and truthfully. how’s life for you now? i hope you’re doing okay, even if i’m not. i don’t know if i should beg or just wait, and that uncertainty scares me. my heart still wants to speak about how much it hurts, how deeply it broke.
the hardest part is losing someone who knew everything about you—your flaws, your weaknesses, your dreams—the version of you that no one else sees. whether you were my girlfriend or my best friend, losing that hurts the most. but it already happened, and i’m trying to respect the decision you made. still, i want you to know… i love you.
2026-07-01 15:23:56