day in the life of a marketing director in los angeles, ca! 👩🏻‍💻💖 i have been going through a lot of change recently and i genuinely feel like june has been such a month full of good luck. it's been an amazing feeling to know that things are working out for me, things i've manifested and things i've spent so much time working towards. but let's talk about change for a second because i don't think we talk enough about how uncomfortable it actually is. growing up, i was always raised to not take large risks. i never had the luxury of having fall backs. i always knew that whatever decision i decided to make at any stage of my life had to work out. that's the reality for a lot of people. of course there are people who are far less privileged than me and have struggled through much harder circumstances, but my parents built something meaningful from absolutely nothing and because of that, i always felt like i had to make sure every opportunity they gave me counted. failure wasn't really something i believed i had room for. that meant in college i wanted to absorb every experience possible because i thought that if i just gathered enough information, eventually making decisions would become easier. it actually had the opposite effect. i became someone who was incredibly indecisive. i would think about every possible outcome before making the smallest decision because i wanted to make sure i wasn't making the wrong one. i wanted to make my parents proud but i also wanted to figure out what i wanted for myself, and for a long time i don't think those two things were always aligned. living alone changed that. if you have the privilege to experience it one day, i think everyone should. it's not about learning how to cook or pay rent. i think it's because it's the first time you're forced to sit alone with your own decisions. every good decision, every bad decision, every consequence becomes yours and nobody else's. it was the first time i realized that change is actually a really scary thing. packing up your life and moving to a city where you don't know many people is one of the biggest changes i've ever gone through. i know so many people have done it before, but you don't understand the weight of that decision until you're actually living it. i remember thinking to myself, "what if this doesn't work out?" and for the first time i realized there wasn't actually an answer to that question. i think that's what i've learned as i've gotten older. there are decisions in life where you'll never have enough information. you'll never feel 100% ready, you'll never know if it's the right choice, and eventually you just have to trust yourself enough to make the decision anyway. i used to think confident people were people who always knew what to do. now i think confidence comes after. confidence is realizing you've survived every scary decision you've ever made and understanding that you'll probably survive the next one too. i also think i've stopped looking at change as something that's trying to take something away from me. every single major change i've gone through has introduced me to a version of myself that i genuinely didn't know existed yet. every job i've had, every city i've lived in, every relationship i've been in has taught me something i couldn't have learned if i stayed where i was comfortable. the goal isnt to avoid change. the goal is to become someone who trusts themselves enough to handle whatever comes after it. because if i look back on every decision that terrified me at the time, somehow i always figured it out. being scared is good. change is good. being uncomfortable is good. see you in the next one! #Vlog #asmr #dayinthelife #dayinmylife #workvlog - @lnparkx