♤♧dino nerd artist♣︎♠︎ :
I loved her so much, i gave her everything I could, i changed so much about myself, I loved her so completely and fully that my entire mood depended on how she was feeling, when she was happy I was happy, when she was sad I was right there to comfort her and try to make her feel better, but it never mattered, her friends didnt like me, her parents didnt even know of my existence, they didnt want her in a relationship at 15, and the worst of all was the long distance, I could never be there for her how she needed it, i loved her to the point I probably wouldve taken a bullet for her, but it all fell apart because of one lie i made, she was a sensitive girl and she just... I guess she wasnt ready for a relationship, atleast thats what she tells me, i miss her so much and i wish she comes back, i hate myself for making that lie, if i could go back in time I would beat myself to the point of being in the hospital for making that lie, she was the best thing that ever happened to me, I wish it could've been better, i wish the circumstances wouldve been better, i loved her so much, i still love her, i want to get over her, but i dont know if i can, she made me happier than I think i'll ever be for atleast the next 5 years, I just want her back, i know i'm losing weight and stuff, i'm changing how my face looks, just changing my looks in general, but its because I want to find someone else, if i find someone else I can get over her probably, but i don't know, i don't want anyone else but at the same time I do, above all else I just want her to be happy, and if i cant be the one to make her happy then I just hope someone else does, i'm way too clingy, too overbearing, too much for anyone, everyone always leaves, everyone blocked me when I face reveal cause i'm just hideous, but she didnt leave, she didnt block me, it gave me hope, but months later she shattered my heart, the day before valentines day, it all went wrong, it anyone needs to vent just reach out to me, I dont want anyone to suffer in silence like I have been for the past few months, i want to see everyone happy even if i cant be
2026-07-14 22:55:11