Janet :
To the lusers: I'm sorry I couldn't keep up that friendship. I truly loved you with all my heart, and you made my entire high school experience worthwhile. Even though I don't want to, I'll never forget the afternoons at my house, the trips to the movies, the moments on my roof, the impromptu picnics, the silly jokes, and the silent support when someone was going through something and we were the first people to know about each other's problems. I can't stop remembering and smiling at every inside joke or moment that made me feel alive, that I could keep living. You saved me when I didn't know I was about to give up. I ended the relationship, not for you, but for me, because I couldn't bear to see you still maintaining that friendship while I watched you from afar, no longer there. If you had accepted me and made an effort to pretend you missed me as much as I missed you, I could have continued this charade. But you can't get blood from a stone, and it took me a while to understand that if you didn't value me as much as I valued you, there was no point in staying. I hope you have a beautiful life, that you resolve your family problems, your insecurities, your financial situation, and your dilemmas about what to do tomorrow, because I'm sure each of you is destined for something admirable. Perhaps the problem wasn't you, I was the one who loved you more than you could love me, and even though things turned out this way, I still love you. Please take care of yourselves, and I'm sorry I was never able to say a proper goodbye and just walked away without explanation.
2026-07-01 23:03:47