✰.-༄𝐊𝐫𝐢𝐬༄ -.✰ :
i started to be scared of men after I broke up a relationship online, and ofc people will say "oh but was all online!", okay I start from the start:
I was 9 years old, I just changed house, school and moved to another city, I was happy to make new friends but I noticed that my new class was different from the others I had in the past, they were more serious and already had many groups, I tried to make friends being myself but I got bullied or just excluded who started to make me depressed because I was always used to being friend with everyone in class and had many friends so I never experienced something like that, after a while I got the same year my period and started to go through the puberty early so some guys on my class started to talk about by b00bs and used to touch me sometimes during break time or gym class and that started to gives me anxiety because i wasn't used and I didn't understand why they used to do that, I started to crave friendship and used to feel lonely so i started to go online even if I was 9-10 to make friends, started to make many friends, I was feeling better, then I met a guy who was 2/3 years older than me (i was 11-12) and he told me he was in love with me, so (lonely that I was) i didn't knew what to do, I didn't knew what love is or how it feels or how a romantic relationship is, but I didn't want to lose a close friend, one who was kind, affecionate towards me, so I just say I loved him too. after some time he started to s3xualizing me, says s3xsual things, I used to say it wasn't make me comfortable but after I just stopped to said that because I was scared to lose a friend, he started to ask picture and I started to give it even waking me up really early at the morning for not let my parents see or discover this, after some months that used to say sometimes "not make me very comfortable to continue to send" (even if used to send) he blocked me and after some weeks I contact him in a way and I discovered he just found someone better who sen pictures without problems etc. and him made fun of me.
after many months I contacted him again, I was craving affection that I didn't have because I didn't have any or not many friends👇
2026-07-04 20:25:04