yaannnsssssss :
I’m 29 currently. Last time I was in actual relationship is when I was around 15, it was my first relationship, first love pretty much lasted for about a year, maybe a little more. Broke up with her because the feeling went away. I remember how it was in the beginning, I could feel the crazy passion and love in your body, people are correct when they say it’s a chemical reaction. I remember that feeling it in my blood. That’s how strong it was, when it went away, I broke up with her, because they kisses stoped tasting very good, the smell of the hair and skin stopped being addictive, and etc. I’ve moved a lot since then. I hadn’t had a relationship like that since, because I haven’t felt the same feeling since. I look for what I’ve read in books and movies, I read and watch a lot. Can’t seem to find it in real life. Casual once in a while kisses, hookups or situation-ships cause more harm than good. I’ve been led on few times, I’ve led one person on recently as well. Sometimes I wonder if I will be alone like this until the end, because all I do is work, gym, sleep. I barely go out because I lost 2 different best friends due to constant moving. Since then barely had actual real friends as well. Sometimes I wonder if I will actually move to my dream city and pursue my dreams and find someone for myself. Sometimes it feels so close, sometimes it feels unrealistic because of my circumstances. Sometimes I feel like I destined for it, sometimes I feel like if I really was why I’m not there already? But then I think why I haven’t stopped thinking about it all this years? My point is, don’t let the loneliness discourage you, sometimes there’s a good reason for it. It’s lonely on top, but as soon as you will find other people there, I’m sure it will feel great. Cheers and good luck bruvvas!
2026-07-09 16:59:03