Helly Cooking :
if you want to go..go...i've been holding my breath for you for too long...i'm tired of being the second choice for you...tired of the push and pull...that keeps happening....tired of explaining the same wounds...starting today i'm learning...letting go with open arms, not because i stopped loving, but because i started loving myself....starting today i choose me....i choose peace...i choose happiness that doesn't ask for permission.....if that means you go...okay, i'm still whole..... i'll drink water, i'll get enough sleep, i'll laugh again, the kind of happiness that i used to dream of for you....now, i give it to myself....and if one day you hear my name...hopefully you'll hear it in the form of calm...not hurt. because i choose to go home, go home to myself...alone......it hurts??? yes, but it hurts more if i stay where i am. that makes me small......i choose myself....because i "HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE HAPPY" even without you in it. that means I'm not giving up..., but I choose myself....because I've fought, I've loved, I've given the best.....if now I'm tired of pulling and pushing...that's a sign, I listen to myself...and I'm great...because I choose myself...." I AM WHOLE " I'm not lost because you want to go...I'm not empty, because you're no longer home. I'm a home for myself...I'm a round of applause for myself....I'm the love, which I used to give to you...now....I hug myself.....even though the pain is still there, the crying is still there 😭😭😭 but slowly, I understand, : " MY HAPPINESS IS NOT STAYING AT SOMEONE ELSE'S HOUSE "
2026-07-09 04:50:04