@7777.wwq: We don't live to please this dunya, we live to please our Creator. No matter how difficult life becomes or how beautiful it may seem, never forget your purpose. Thank your Lord in every situation and always return to your deen. Allah is always there for those who sincerely turn back to Him. No sin is greater than His mercy, and no one is beyond His forgiveness. Keep making tawbah, keep striving, and never lose hope in His mercy. Indeed, He is the Most Forgiving, the Most Merciful.