𖣂︎ :
it's been nine months, and honestly, i still don't understand why a part of me can't let you go. i've tried to convince myself that i'm okay, that i've accepted everything that happened between us, and that i've finally moved on from someone who is no longer a part of my life. but the truth is, sometimes i still find myself thinking about you, remembering the little things we used to do, and wondering how someone who once made me feel so loved could leave me with so many questions. i don't even know why it's still you. after everything that happened, after all the things i found out, after all the nights i've spent trying to understand what went wrong, somehow my heart still remembers you in ways i wish it didn't.
do you know what hurts the most? it's not just the fact that you left me. it's the fact that you told me there was no one else, and i believed you. when you said that you wanted to break up for my own good, i tried to understand you. when you told me that you felt like something was missing after we stopped talking, i thought maybe what we had meant something to you too. i thought maybe you were hurting just as much as i was, maybe you were struggling to get used to a life without me, and maybe, just maybe, there was still a part of you that didn't want to lose me. i held on to those words because i wanted to believe that our relationship had been real to both of us.
but then, three days before we broke up, you were already making streaks with her, and you blocked me on tiktok. i didn't understand why you did that back then. i kept wondering if i had done something wrong, if i had somehow become someone you no longer wanted around, or if there was something you weren't telling me. and when i found out months later that you were actually together with her, everything suddenly felt different. i saw her name on your bio, i saw the pictures you posted of her on your story, and i saw the things you kept reposting about her. and all i could think about was how you once told me she was your cousin. i don't know what went through your mind when you said that to me, but i know what went through mine when i finally saw the truth for myself.
i wish you knew .
2026-10-21 02:23:12