Delć🇧🇦🇸🇮🇦🇹🔻 :
My father was an alcoholic. When I was 6 years old, I watched him sit on my mother and hit her with his fists. He drank everything he earned, my mother used her minimum wage to pay the bills, feed us, hide the money so that my father wouldn't find it, dress us, buy us toys. I had to take care of my younger brother from a young age because my mother HAD to work all the time. We had a lot of debt. When my father came home (always drunk, of course), we were always stressed because he was always aggressive (mostly mentally, physically - he threw things at us more than he hit us). Later, when we were older, my brother and I took turns going out because we were afraid that my mother would be left alone with him.
Now I have a child with autism (10 years old). In our country, autism is not assessed by degrees - you either have autism or you don't. If I had to rate it from 1 to 10, I would say it's somewhere around a 4.
So, since I was born, I've been under stress. I don't even know what it's like to be stress-free. My child is great, but I have to do a lot for him, constant worry, thinking if he's in pain or if he's hungry,....
If I had to decide now when I was worse - with my father or my child... I would say with my father. With my child, there are no worries about aggression, money, we enjoy it. We offer him a good life and with that, us too.
But for now, in the future, as I get older, there will probably be an increasing concern about what will happen when I'm gone.
2026-07-31 05:54:35