@jst_nmb: chasing answers i can’t pick, i desire to be sick. i want my skin to feel the shiver, of me drowning in the river. i want my lungs to gasp for breath, and feel the rope choke me to death. to disappear and not be found, to lay my body underground. a safe space i try to find, to drink the poison of my mind. to feel the flesh peel of each bone, and burn myself when i’m alone. i haven’t always been this way, i tried so hard to be okay. i spent my life trying to heal, now i wanna look just how i feel. #quote #poetry edit by:@dreya ✘