@leokatieocdadhd: 1️⃣ I constantly needed to “reset” After a fight or an anxious moment I always showered or changed. I felt like I couldn't get back to normal without starting over. 2️⃣ An intrusive thought could ruin the happiest moment And I would get so anxious thinking the memory of that moment would be tainted forever. 3️⃣ I felt like people's bad moods latched onto me One conversation was enough, and I wouldn't feel like myself until I "reset" or enough time passed. 4️⃣ I treated clothes like they could absorb trauma If something bad happened to me, whatever I was wearing became a permanent reminder. It was all I could think about whenever I saw it in my closet. 5️⃣ I treated my feelings like confessions “Why do I feel this way?” “What does it mean about me?" ...convincing myself of things that weren't even true. 6️⃣ I avoided places that weren’t actually dangerous But that felt tainted by something from the past. And I felt like it would get on me or us if we went there. There was a name for all this, it was Emotional Contamination OCD. After years of recovery, I made 2 self-help apps for people struggling with OCD. “RumiNot” for OCD “PeachyTalks” for Relationship OCD Search in the App Store, I truly hope they help 🤍 #ocd #rocd #relationshipocd #emotionalcontamination #ocdhelp
