I lost her because of my own mistakes. But she was truly a wonderful person…! After that, I chose a life partner to rebuild myself and start over. I thought I was strong enough to handle everything. Now I realize that trying to accept certain things only makes my chest ache. Then I understood… If removing someone from your heart were that easy, there would be no need for an angel to separate the soul from the body. I don’t ask for much, my Lord. I only ask You to rewrite my destiny with Your own hands. I walk around carrying countless bitter pains within me. Besides, there will never be a second life. In this one, I have no choice but to live with regret and pain. If I can ever overcome this grief, I will never let myself be attached to anyone again, even in seven lifetimes. Since I’ve already lost my dreams, I won’t search for them anymore. Even if the whole world were mine, I wouldn’t ask for it. All I need is one peaceful sleep… Even if I never wake up. The one whom no one could change, time eventually changes. The people who endure everything and accept everything are the ones who cannot sleep at night, my Lord. 😅 Deep inside, I keep saying, “This didn’t have to happen to me.” She was someone I cherished with all my heart. That’s why my greatest wish turned into my deepest sorrow… And now, I’m ruining another life as well. 😅 My beloved Lord, I am truly broken. 🥀 Here I am, fighting a battle within myself, slowly disappearing… Who can I even tell? This was supposed to be the most beautiful chapter of my life. I had so many dreams for this age. 🫠 There was so much I wanted to do, but fate was never on my side. Still, In Sha Allah, I have complete faith in Allah. One day everything will be alright, and I will become the person I once was. Had I known the story would end like this, I would never have given you a place in my heart. 😅 And I would never have destroyed another life by starting over. 😅 The person I have become today… is the kind of person I once hated myself. And this is not the end… There is still so much left to say, but perhaps I’ll keep it buried inside. 😊 - @4.40hyper