man_of_culture222 :
i'm alone. Have no friends. Not that people are mean, but i just can't start a conversation. And if an conversation starts, i don't know what to say. I don't know people that they know, there hobbys, what they like or dislike. And i'm too shy to try anything that grabs peoples attention or with others. I was talkative and expressive when i was little, but as time went on, i started to think how i act and look from the side. I'm almost 18 and i don't know what to do or how to, and that scares me, very. Lately, having less energy to do things, mostly just doomscroll on my phone or watch something on PC. Even on summer i'm mostly at home. And it doesn't help seeing how other people or other family members talk and do stuff with there friends or clouse people.
I don't know what to do and that angers and sadens me. I have dreams, goals, but when i try to acomplishe them, i loose interest and repeat the sycle. I'm not depressed, i still smile, am happy from time to time, i just don't try to think about these things. But that won't solve the problem.
If i don't change now or soon, the possibility of me living to my 30s or late 20s won't be high.
I don't know what to do or how to feel.
2026-08-07 16:48:15