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lelouch :
to my avoidant baby, i won’t beg this time. not because i stopped caring, but because i’m starting to understand that love shouldn’t feel like i have to keep proving i’m worth staying for. i see you. even in your silence. i notice how you disappear when things get overwhelming, how you choose distance over confrontation. and i’ve tried, i really did, to meet you where you are without losing myself in the process. but loving you quietly has been the loudest pain i’ve ever felt. i kept telling myself na “intindihin mo s’ya, gan’to lang talaga siya” while slowly, ako naman yung nauubos. i stayed patient, i stayed soft, even when i felt ignored, even when i felt like i was the only one holding on. and maybe you’ll never fully realize how much i chose you in moments where it would’ve been easier to walk away. i don’t hate you. i don’t blame you. but I’m finally accepting that i can’t be the only one fighting for something that’s supposed to be ours. if you ever come across this, i hope you understand that i didn’t leave because i stopped loving you. i stepped back because i had to start choosing myself too. and if one day you learn how to stay, i hope you remember someone once loved you this gently, this patiently, this real. but for now, i’m letting go of the version of you that only exists when it’s convenient. still soft, just not losing myself anymore like before.
2026-07-24 09:52:40
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miss u cheals
2026-07-28 07:18:29
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Yearner Aj :P :
baby, i miss you na po
2026-07-23 05:34:58
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J :
i miss you baby
2026-07-27 23:46:27
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Belu :
I miss you so much, "mon amour"
2026-07-27 14:37:59
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hervie_ :
are we learning or yearning?
2026-07-29 00:35:10
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YUNO🚀🐌 :
mahal kita to the point that sometimes i choose to ignore the pain even when it’s already hurting me deeply, because losing you feels heavier than anything i’m going through. i know you don’t want me to drain myself for you, i know you’ve said that before, but i can’t help it because this is how much i love you. when you love someone this deeply, you tend to give more than you should, even when it starts to hurt, even when it slowly takes pieces of you away. i’m willing to sacrifice everything for you, even if it hurts, even if it becomes too much, even if there are days when i feel like i’m slowly losing parts of myself, as long as you’re happy and you feel that someone is still choosing to stay with you no matter what. i don’t want to be a burden to you, that’s why most of the time i choose to keep everything to myself even when what i’m feeling is already too heavy. i’m scared that if i open up too much, it might push you away or turn into another misunderstanding, and i don’t want that. so i stay quiet, not because i don’t feel anything, but because i’m trying to protect what we have. i love you so much, and with you, i felt things i never thought i would ever feel in my life, a kind of love that was so pure, so deep, and so real that it changed me completely. but at the same time, you’re also the person who made me feel a kind of pain i never imagined i would go through, and that kind of pain hits differently because it came from the same person who once made me feel so safe and loved. i just hope that when you’re having a hard time, you would still look at me the way you used to, the way you used to see me before, like i still matter, like i’m still someone you choose even when things aren’t easy. i’m not asking for everything to go back to how it was before, again, even in the smallest ways, even just a little, even if it’s not the same as before, just enough to remind me that what we have is still real. and please don’t ever think that i stayed because i had no choice, because that’s not true. i’m staying because i’m sure about you.
2026-07-21 13:36:14
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Ai_v4N :
Mga comments
2026-07-22 18:14:23
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ᥫ᭡ :
It’s honestly the heaviest, most exhausting feeling, waking up every single day and knowing exactly where we stand, but still wishing things were different. You were so clear about it you didn't stutter, you didn't leave any room for guessing, and you firmly told me that you won't ever like me back in that way. I respect that, I really do, but my heart just hasn’t caught up to my head yet. It’s like this constant, dull ache in my chest that just won't go away no matter how busy I try to keep myself. Every time my phone lights up, there's this stupid, automatic split-second where I hope it’s you, followed immediately by this sinking feeling in my stomach when I remember it’s not, and it never will be. It physically hurts because you’re right there, so close, but completely out of reach. It feels like I'm standing outside in the freezing cold, looking through a window at a warm, cozy room that I’m just never allowed to enter. I hate how I still memorize the little things about you, how I still care so much about how your day went, and how I have to force myself to tone down my enthusiasm just so I don't make things weird or cross any lines. You drew a boundary, and I’m trying so hard to stay on my side of it, but yearning for someone who has explicitly closed the door on you feels like mourning a relationship that never even got to happen. It’s just this lonely, quiet longing, trying to figure out how to untangle my feelings from someone who already made it clear they’ll never hold them back.
2026-07-22 06:56:20
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ralf :
survival skills na may relapse
2026-07-26 02:23:41
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oxyjane :
i hate it when all this distraction i find myself thinking of you again and again like why I am supposed to do now if ako naman talaga yung nang iwan hahaha tapos mag r-reach out ako kase i want you back , I am so selfish for doing that I am fucking selfishh i hate being avoidant, I'm very very sorry for what i did i hope you wil forgive me coz i don't know why ko nagawa yon kahit ang intention mo lang is mahalin ako ng totoo but this stupid avoidant attachment thinks that i don't deserve all of your genuine love, i want you back :<<
2026-07-22 11:12:51
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thecure :
I keep reading our messages kasi hindi ko matanggap na that was our last. hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko ngayon. parang gusto kong umiyak, gusto kong matulog, gusto kong kausapin siya, gusto kong yakapin siya kahit alam kong hindi pwede. ang daming gusto kong sabihin pero wala na ring point. ang hirap tanggapin na someone who meant so much to me is suddenly gone. i really thought we’d have more time, i really thought we’d figure things out together. hindi ko naman siya minahal para lang matapos nang ganito. i know life doesn’t stop here. I don’t think i’ll recover, ngayon, ang alam ko lang is sobrang sakit na talaga. i just miss him. i miss us. and i think that’s what’s breaking me the most. I freaking miss you my baby, my asawa. if ever na bumalik ka sakin ulit, ayusin natin to, i want you to be my last. i don’t mind waiting for you, prioritize yourself and your studies muna just like what you said but please don’t leave me, i am willing to wait for you to be ready. :((
2026-07-23 04:46:35
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K💫 :
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2026-07-25 13:46:49
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Teeyoooo :
It honestly feels unfair… kasi ikaw naman yung unang pumasok sa buhay ko. I wasn’t the one who looked for you, hindi kita hinanap—ikaw yung nag-initiate, ikaw yung unang nagparamdam na may something, na may meaning lahat. You made it feel real, like hindi lang siya temporary. I wasn’t even searching for anyone, pero somehow, naging part ka ng everyday life ko. As time went by, nasanay ako sa’yo—sa presence mo, sa way mo makipag-usap, sa kung paano mo ako tratuhin. You made me feel seen, like I actually mattered, na ako yung gusto mo, na ako yung pipiliin mo. Pero ngayon, I can’t help but think… maybe you didn’t really love me, maybe you just loved how I made you feel. Yung care ko, yung pag-stay ko, yung pag-intindi ko sa’yo. But when it came to actually choosing me, to standing firm sa kung anong meron tayo—you couldn’t do it. Hindi ka naging sure, hindi ka naging consistent. Hindi ako manhid. I notice everything. Napapansin ko yung small changes—yung paglayo mo, yung pagiging inconsistent mo, yung mga moments na parang wala ka na. I can clearly see kung sino yung mas nag-eeffort, kung sino yung mas may pakialam, at kung sino yung mas natatakot mawala yung isa. Alam ko rin na kinakausap mo lang ako kapag gusto mo—when you feel okay, when you’re happy, when it’s convenient for you. But did you ever realize na kaya kitang intindihin kahit anong pinagdadaanan mo? Even at your lowest, I was willing to be there, to make you feel na hindi ka nag-iisa. I was ready to stay—not just sa good days mo, but even sa worst ones. Ramdam ko kung kailan nag-iiba yung trato mo. I know when you’re no longer sure. Kahit wala kang sabihin, naiintindihan ko na kung anong nangyayari sa atin. I’m not stupid—I just chose to stay, kahit alam ko na yung truth. And the truth is… kahit nakikita ko na lahat clearly, pinili ko pa ring manatili—kahit ramdam ko na unti-unti, nagiging one-sided na lang lahat.
2026-07-23 13:37:10
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sen2zzz :
It honestly feels unfair… kasi ikaw naman yung unang pumasok sa buhay ko. I wasn’t the one who looked for you, hindi kita hinanap—ikaw yung nag-initiate, ikaw yung unang nagparamdam na may something, na may meaning lahat. You made it feel real, like hindi lang siya temporary. I wasn’t even searching for anyone, pero somehow, naging part ka ng everyday life ko. As time went by, nasanay ako sa’yo—sa presence mo, sa way mo makipag-usap, sa kung paano mo ako tratuhin. You made me feel seen, like I actually mattered, na ako yung gusto mo, na ako yung pipiliin mo. Pero ngayon, I can’t help but think… maybe you didn’t really love me, maybe you just loved how I made you feel. Yung care ko, yung pag-stay ko, yung pag-intindi ko sa’yo. But when it came to actually choosing me, to standing firm sa kung anong meron tayo—you couldn’t do it. Hindi ka naging sure, hindi ka naging consistent. Hindi ako manhid. I notice everything. Napapansin ko yung small changes—yung paglayo mo, yung pagiging inconsistent mo, yung mga moments na parang wala ka na. I can clearly see kung sino yung mas nag-eeffort, kung sino yung mas may pakialam, at kung sino yung mas natatakot mawala yung isa. Alam ko rin na kinakausap mo lang ako kapag gusto mo—when you feel okay, when you’re happy, when it’s convenient for you. But did you ever realize na kaya kitang intindihin kahit anong pinagdadaanan mo? Even at your lowest, I was willing to be there, to make you feel na hindi ka nag-iisa. I was ready to stay—not just sa good days mo, but even sa worst ones. Ramdam ko kung kailan nag-iiba yung trato mo. I know when you’re no longer sure. Kahit wala kang sabihin, naiintindihan ko na kung anong nangyayari sa atin. I’m not stupid—I just chose to stay, kahit alam ko na yung truth. And the truth is… kahit nakikita ko na lahat clearly, pinili ko pa ring manatili—kahit ramdam ko na unti-unti, nagiging one-sided na lang lahat.
2026-07-22 11:52:15
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Gift :
Hi ash, kamusta ka na? I hope you see this chat. It’s been a while since huli tayong nagkausap no?. I know this message is long overdue na and I just want to say this properly. I know our story ended before it even had the chance to really begin. And one of my biggest regrets is hindi ko man lang naiparamdam how important you were to me. Hindi ako naging consistent and yes that's true, hindi ako nag-step up the way i should have. I took you for granted and i know dun ako nagkulang sayo. Day by day, naiisip ko pa rin kung ano ba talaga yung nangyari sa atin. Minsan napapaisip ako kung saan ako nagkulang at kung ano yung mga bagay na dapat mas ginawa ko. Nung umalis ka, dun ko mas naintindihan lahat lahat. I saw where I went wrong and how I could’ve loved you better. Natutunan ko na hindi sapat yung pagmamahak ko lang kung hindi mo kayang panindigan. I’ve been trying to grow, to be more open, more patient, more honest with what i really feel and to be honest, masakit lang isipin na i learned those things a little too late na. I’m genuinely sorry Ash. Sorry for the times I made you feel unappreciated. For not being consistent. For choosing silence when you needed reassurance. For the broken promises and the moments na i wasn’t there when you needed me the most. You deserved so much. You deserved effort, clarity and someone who made you feel secure. Alam kong hindi ko naibigay yun the way you deserved. I’ve changed, not out of fear of losing you but because I finally understood what love truly requires. I’m not expecting anything from this. I just want you to know that i’m aware sa mga pagkukulang ko and that you truly mattered to me. If life gives us another chance someday, I know i would show up differently. But if hanggang dito na lang talaga tayo, I’ll respect that. Thank you for the time we shared, even if it was short. I genuinely hope you’re happy and that you find the kind of love that feels steady, sure and never confusing. Always take care of yourself ha. Mag-iingat ka palagi jan my Boss.
2026-07-23 13:23:59
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Hotdog na Steam :
Hi Khaly, I’ve been holding a lot inside for a long time things I didn’t say, not because they didn’t matter, but because I didn’t know if saying them would change anything, or maybe because I was scared that it would. I guess that’s the thing about us… we were never something easy to explain. There was no clear definition, but at the same time, nothing about it ever felt fake or meaningless to me. I cared about you in ways I didn’t always show properly. Sometimes I stayed quiet, choosing to understand instead of asking questions, choosing to be patient instead of asking for clarity. I stayed in ways I didn’t even notice at first adjusting, waiting, hoping thinking maybe that’s what it means when you truly value someone. And I did value you. More than I probably ever said out loud. There were moments that might have seemed small or ordinary to others, but they meant everything to me. The conversations, the comfort, the way we could just exist in the same space without needing to define anything… it all felt real. I can’t look back at what we had and call it “nothing,” because it wasn’t. It mattered to me, and it always will. But at the same time, I was confused. Confused about where I stood, about what we really are now, about what you felt and what I was allowed to feel. And I think that’s one of the biggest lessons I learned from us that clarity matters. That it’s not enough to say “it’s okay” when, deep down, you’re slowly questioning your place in someone’s life. I learned that caring about someone shouldn’t mean losing parts of yourself just to fit into their world. I learned that it’s important to speak, to ask, to understand because not everything can be solved by waiting and hoping. And I learned that sometimes, no matter how willing you are to stay, if things aren’t aligned, they just won’t turn into what you hoped they would be. I don’t blame you. I never did. And I don’t hate you I don’t think I ever could. What I feel is something softer, something more understanding, even if it’s still a little complicated. Because despite everything, I still appreciate you for who you are. And a part of me probably always will.
2026-07-22 05:32:07
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Gergi :
When did the soap got clean
2026-07-19 07:39:44
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Ang pag-ibig sa kanya ay hindi kailanman bahagi ng aking plano, ngunit kahit papaano, ito ay naging isa sa mga pinakamakahulugang bagay na nangyari sa akin. Siya ay dumating sa aking buhay nang tahimik, nang walang anumang inaasahan, ngunit dahan-dahan niyang binago ang paraan ng pagtingin ko sa lahat. Ipinaunawa niya sa akin na ang pag-ibig ay hindi palaging perpekto o madali, ngunit ito ay isang bagay na pipiliin mo nang paulit-ulit, gaano man kawalang-katiyakan ang pakiramdam. Nagsimula ang lahat sa isang bagay na simple, maliliit na pag-uusap na tila hindi gaanong noong una. Ngunit sa paglipas ng panahon, ang mga simpleng sandali na iyon ay naging mas malalim. Bawat mensahe, bawat tawa, bawat maliit na pakikipag-ugnayan ay naging isang bagay na inaabangan ko. Nang hindi man lang napapansin, naging bahagi siya ng aking pang-araw-araw na buhay... at sa huli, isang bahagi ng aking puso. May mga pagkakataon na kailangan kong pigilan ang aking nararamdaman, lalo na noong alam kong hindi tama Pinili kong manahimik, hindi dahil wala akong pakialam, kundi dahil nirerespeto ko siya. Ayokong gawing kumplikado ang mga bagay o i-pressure siya. Kaya nanatili ako, tahimik na nagmamalasakit, tahimik na umaasa, kahit alam kong walang tiyak. At kahit papaano, habang nasa daan, nagsimula akong maunawaan ang mga bagay nang hindi sinasabi. Hindi lahat ng kwento ay sinadya para magkaroon ng ending na gusto natin. May mga sandali na unti-unti mong napagtanto ang iyong lugar sa buhay ng isang tao, at kahit na hindi ito ang iyong inaasahan, natututo kang tanggapin ito. Masakit, oo pero hindi sapat para pagsisihan kong minahal ko siya. Nang sa wakas ay naging tapat na ako sa nararamdaman ko, wala na akong inaasahan na babalikan. Gusto ko lang malaman niya ang katotohanan na mahalaga siya sa akin higit pa sa malamang na napagtanto niya. At kahit sa huli ako lang ang tinuturing niyang kaibigan, tatanggapin ko iyon, dahil ang pagkakaroon niya sa buhay ko, kahit saglit lang, ay isang bagay na espesyal. Dahil minsan, ang pag-ibig ay hindi tungkol sa pagpili. Minsan, ito ay tungkol sa pagpili ng isang tao nang buong puso, kahit na ang mga bagay ay hindi mangyayari sa paraang inaasahan mo.
2026-07-21 13:06:43
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