lydia :
we clicked instantly. 2 completely different people, different lifestyles, 9 year age gap. we got pregnant the first time. 3.5 years together, one hell of a roller coaster. we had nothing in common, except depth. we loved each other but didnt truly innerstand one another. he left me when i was 22 weeks pregnant with our second son. it busted my heart open wide. i finally came to understand him, better than i ever had. i began to understand myself, heal, and he fell in love with that. now we're more in love with each other than we've ever been. unfortunately, he jumped into another relationship right after leaving me, and he loves her too. we both know we'll make our way back to each other, but in the meantime, we have to friendly coparent with each other, but deeply in love. until he's done with the third party, until she breaks his heart, or teaches him the lessons that he knows her purpose in his life is. now i have to watch the love of my life, my twin, love someone else and her two sons😭 it's only been 5 months. ive been the chaser, but he's currently occupied with her. it's hurts so bad, but now im on the better side of learning to surrender, love myself, focus on my children, and stop letting the love i have for him distract me from the life that's happening around me. i know it's him. he's so beautiful, inside and out. i know we'll make our way back. i have so much faith in us. i just pray it doesnt take years😞
2026-07-20 03:29:58