Countryjoe82 :
This was me, for 20 years, I waited for her to finally pick me, she would give me the littlest amount of attention as possible, to keep me around. I would speak to her about it and she would guve me attention for a day or 2 and then back to the same routines. I begged her for her love, I loved her so much, I allowed myself, who I was as a person to completely fade, I turned into everything she wanted and needed. my feelings were always on the back burner, I was never a first option or choice. I had to finally walk away 4 years ago, even though she had walked away from me many years prior, she was in love with the life I gave her, not me. I have since learned who i am, what I loke and want. it has been a hard journey but I feel im in a better place for it. i just hope someday, someone will finally chose me.
2026-07-20 04:46:13