Viciiiii :
i noticed that many mormons present that they don't struggle in. perhaps it's a utah issue? and man i love the real ones. mad respect to them, even the ones that are super religious. If they are quality good folk and interesting to hang out with and normal, i can rock with that. my 40 year old autistic selfF full of abuse and religious extremism, gullible and believing in there even though i sense something is off, drove me crazy when i finally cracked the code , started investigating, talking more with bishops, etc. i realized people just have a recommend so people don't think less of them. yet the most sad thing is based on the rules, i can't go to the temple. yet i actually love and know and understand what is happening in there. i think deeply about my time within those walls and since i can't go, i create my own celestial room. and if jesus were here he would let people going they struggle with things like recording drug issues, corn you name it but are really good people, would give the shirt off their back to their neighbor, their friends say they are the sweetest person. yet i didn't ask for the main issues i have. thst was a response to an extremely traumatic childhood paired with autism and other sensory issues like brain injuries and so forth. and honestly i think im gonna lie because i love the temple and i don't take it lightly what happens inside and why one needs to be pure. but i it turned out i we the naive one. it's ok. but i did mess with my testimony. some bishops said mo while others said you need to go. it depends on so many subjective factors, etc. thst is why i am quite disappointed in how they have handled administrative things and spiritual guidelines. don't get me wrong, i completely understand the importance of being spiritually strong and clean to be in the presence of God and that's not something to mess around with
2026-07-22 02:54:26