T.A.O ig :
i dont have friends, i only had my gf but she broke up with me bc she had lost feelings. Even after everthing we had done, everthing we did together, all of our momments together, our time spent together. I miss her. I miss her voice, her pretty smile, her brown eyes looking back at me saying i love you for the first time, i miss her. My dad is always on business trips so i rarely see him, i rarely talk to my mom idk why. I prob should but i dont. My brother always works night shift so when he is home he's asleep and only off a couple days. I had one real friend but he started drifiting away bc he started making more and more and more friends. I dont have anyone else. We're cut off from my mom's side of the family bc we dont simply get along. I barely see my dad's side of the family, his mom died 2 years ago on august 14th. Her and my grandpa had went to el salvador to visit family. I had a choice to stay home and not say goodbye to them or go to the airport and say bye and wish them well. But i didnt and i regret it alot. I miss my nana. I was selfish and didnt want to go but i didnt know that was my last time seeing her. Im going into hs with no one, its hard for me to make friends bc i have social anxity. I would rather jst keep to my self and do my school work and do sprorts by myself. But i want to be loved, not jst temporary like my last relationship. I mean love not lust, i want to be hugged and be told by her that she loves me and means it, i want the reassurance from her or anybody rly. Yeah some people might think im to young to be in a relationship but i want somebody to love me and have a healthy relationship with them. Where we can communicate to each other freely and not have to lie or do stuff behind each others back. Like jst a normal healthy relationship would help me so much. Somebody telling me they love me and actually meaning it. Somebody telling me that they are proud of me and telling me what they are proud of me about . Not jst "Im proud of you". I want "im proud of you for being a good human being, good grades, a good son." That would go a long way for me. Sorry if theres typos, im crying and struggling to write rn.
2026-07-24 08:12:08