Akari♡ :
My ex is avoidant too, and I only realized that after the breakup. We’re still friends, and he told me he doesn’t understand himself either. Part of him still wants me, while another part feels like he can live without me. He said he still wants me as a friend in his life, but I couldn’t accept the breakup because it happened so suddenly. We didn’t even fight, and whenever we had problems, we always tried to solve them patiently. I just didn’t know he was avoidant, and I accidentally treated the relationship too seriously, especially when it came to talking about our future, even though he did the same at the time. He was so excited about meeting me and seemed genuinely obsessed with me, but then one random day, when he didn’t have WiFi, he spent some time alone and realized he could actually be okay without having a girlfriend. He said he didn’t want to deal with relationship responsibilities right now and wanted to focus on his hobbies, goals, and games without feeling like he had to be a boyfriend, almost like he wanted to text me only whenever he felt like it. I’m an anxious person, so I needed reassurance sometimes, and at first he was willing to give it to me. I didn’t even have to ask because he would reassure me on his own, which made me get used to that consistency. I became so attached to him that I started feeling like my life was complete only when I had him, and I abandoned the people around me to stay in this small world that was just me and him. I didn’t realize he might have been feeling overwhelmed or suffocated during that time. He also made me feel protective and possessive over the relationship, like telling me to stay away from my guy best friends even though they were basically like brothers to me and already had girlfriends or were still trying to get over their exes. Looking back, I know that wasn’t healthy, but I still gave up those friendships for him because I thought he was enough for me. Later, he told me I needed to find my own happiness and stop depending on him emotionally, but I wasn’t like this before him; I changed because I became so deeply attached to him.
2026-09-22 04:34:07