Arra :
as a middle child, I was the child that they didn't check up on. Growing up I keep in mind that I should gave things to my younger siblings cause they need it more, and my older siblings can have it since I don't need it. I became a shadow, even if I know I need or I want it too, I will always step back so they can have it. My parents didn't need to check up on me; there's this time I was feeling so sick(I always got admitted in the hospital by the way) 2019-18 years old One time I got admitted and celebrated Christmas alone, without family members in the hospital cause I told my mother to go home cause I don't want my siblings to celebrate Christmas without our parents and when they go to visit me, I have foods from my friends they visited me in the hospital on Christmas day and brought foods for me, even if they know I can't eat it. When my mom came to visit me the next day she told me "oh buti kapa madaming handa dito sa Ospital", and then I got hospitalized again 2024 Again I was admitted I called my friend told her to go to hospital to look for me since I am sick again, and I don't wanna bother them anymore good thing she's on vacation that time. They gave me 1500 if incase I have to buy something or what, Good thing my ldr partner was ready to provide for me and I have extra money from my side hustle as a college student that time, I stayed there for 7days, the only time they go there is before I got admitted and then when I asked them to get my friend since I have to go back to attend my classes after being hospitalized. So yes, we learn to be strong not because we want it by choice but because we have to. ❤️
2026-07-30 08:20:51