SlpZ :
once I heal, I will truly accept solitude. A lifetime of hurts, I'm done. No good women deserves not to have entire heart, and I don't have time nor energy to play games, or get hopes up. So best thing is heal, enjoy what my life is, and accept the lesson life keeps teaching me, I am meant to be alone. Yeah I have beautiful siblings that care, but it's not same. I always wanted that person to come home to, daily dinners and quality time, making a lifetime of memories, big and small. A partner in life. A true partner, loyal, respectful, where we both put in effort, know how to be individuals but also together. I've seen it in others, but never for myself. So I know it exists, just not for me. It a sadness I struggle hard to accept but have to. To have zero friends left, for time and life moved on, they either moved away or created families, that's just life. To be betrayed by the one I loved, and know I love her but she doesn't love me, I don't think she ever did, just loved how I treated her, until she found something she liked better. It sux, but that's life. So I will protect myself. I rather be alone than hurt someone or someone hurt me again.
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