On July 27, 2026, on my daughter's third birthday, I suffered a miscarriage 😩💔 I don't think it's something I can ever wrap my head around.. I keep asking myself HOW! How can I go thru my first pregnancy with literally ZERO complications, no swollen ankles, no pain, and have the most perfect baby while doing it all alone.. stressed, first time mother brain.. To having it so much better the second time with the most caring most patient man.. not having to worry about doing none of this alone even with the child I already have.. &' losing the pregnancy. Going thru a miscarriage isn't something anyone can ever understand unless you go thru it. It's not just blood.. it's you losing EVERYTHING! Your baby, the womb, the sac.. it's a literal blood bath with so much pain in a time you're not even imagining going thru this.. to a few days later losing your baby bump.. one day you're pregnant and the next day you're not with no baby.. my brain can't even wrap my head around it.. In my case I suffered an anembryonic pregnancy. There was a sac which made me have hormones and everything like a regular pregnancy but no baby. Just a sac. I was once pregnant but i'm pretty sure the baby absorbed itself. I was 11 w almost 12 weeks and my sac measured at 8 weeks. It's so crazy because it should be one of the last things on my mind, but one of the biggest things on my mind was me being judged. It's so crazy because you can be judged by someone who went through the same exact thing and it doesn't make any sense. I only told a few people about me losing the pregnancy and I actually had someone asking me do I think it's because of me working.. basically blaming me for having a miscarriage when in all reality, the baby probably was already absorbed by the time I got on the truck. So far, I have been judged by people who have had miscarriages, people that are literally carrying a pregnancy &' so on. I was even recently laughed at &' told I lied about being pregnant because I was scared someone was going to "beat my ass". Mind you, all of this while I'm still going through this miscarriage. If y'all don't remember, a girl who I used to be friends with came to my house to fight me with four other people after I already told her I'm not fighting her because I'm pregnant. She approached me at the park with my child about a situation that happened in 2024 because I blocked her for ignoring me on my birthday when she was supposed to be doing my hair. It was as simple as that. I would never lie about being pregnant or lie about losing a pregnancy. My pregnancy with my first was so beautiful regardless of any circumstances.. I was happy to be pregnant again I was happy to be carrying a life. I was happy to be pregnant for my partner.. even though in the back of my mind, I kept feeling like maybe right now wasn't the best time, I was still happy. So now I'm really devastated.. it's just one of those things. I don't really know how to feel and all I know how to do is move on plus I have a child that depends on me day and day out so I can't dwell. I just have to keep going. My daughter's birthday was on Monday. On Friday I was delivering my last load &' was about to be coming home so I could celebrate the entire weekend with her for her birthday. I was at the truck stop and went to use the bathroom and when I wiped myself, I realized I was bleeding. It was light, but I never bleed at all with Ayvah so immediately I call my sister crying, just screaming in the bathroom with other people and everything that I did not wanna lose my baby and that I'm scared. I literally had no pain, no indication that I was having a miscarriage.. so I took it as it could be something that's not that. I didn't wanna ruin My Baby's birthday so I'm monitored the bleeding and left it alone. I made it in early Saturday and was already behind on all the plans. I still wasn't experiencing any pain just light bleeding so I continued with all the plans for her birthday. All I could think about - @theerookie_